I am xtan.goth, as you can probably tell by my name, I am currently serving my country in the United States Marine Corps. I have probably only a couple more months left in the military, then I start on my life outside the day to day operations of the military. I am currently thinking about going to become a minister in LCMS. I am still very big into the Goth Subculture out here in the lovely Southern California Desert, I am probably the only Christian Goth per-say out here the only other ones I know of are Pagan. Which brings me to my next topic, my past.
Up until, October of this year, I have been a practicing Wiccan/Pagan. I have spent around the last 10 years to some degree or another in the occult. Some of it in groups, and also some of it solitary. But something changed in me around August of this year. I just felt like no matter how much I did magick it just plain and simple wasn't doing it for me anymore. I just felt like there was this gaping hole in me that nothing could fill. Then I started getting into something really dark. The only way I can really describe it is Demonic. I knew it was evil pure and simple, but at the time I thought I could control it. How wrong I was. I ended up talking to a really close friend of mine about everything, and she simply started telling me about Christianity. (On a side note, I grew up in a Lutheran household before I decided to rebel and get into Wicca.) I was completely cautious about this. I had just spent almost the last decade basically knocking down Christians to some degree or another. I didn't know that he could forgive me, so she invited me to go to church with her that following Sunday. I was nervous I had always thought that they were going to basically get ready for an exorcism if they saw someone like me walking in. I was used to the weird stares that comes with wearing the clothes.
I was actually surprised when I went there, I didn't get any weird stares or anything. I felt accepted. It was that day that I decided to turn away from Paganism, and became a Christian. It was the best decision I made in my life. It was also around that time that I felt like my true calling in life was to become a pastor for the goths. Ask anyone who knows me I have become outspoken about my religious beliefs.
I am going to post again here in a couple days more on some of my past experiences with Wicca and Paganism. I just wanted to drop by quickly and say what's up, and give a brief introduction. I am also currently writing a demo for the band I am the only member of, I will post a link to the downloadable album on here as soon as I finish up on everything.
Merry Christmas and God Bless,
xtan.goth
